Well looks like I'll be taking a break!

So I was on academic probation the last couple of terms because I've taken two classes twice each so far because I've failed them.  Partially because of depression, physical illness/surgeries, and laziness.  So the school set me up to retake one of the classes for a third time and I had been in class, had started posting to the class then they totally dropped me out of school all together this term.  I'll have to talk to academic advising and see what they say about re-instating me in school.  If they say no then I'll deal with it.  Unfortunately life got in my way.  I was hoping to start off strong and I totally screwed myself.  My GPA must look like absolute hell.  Each time I take a class even if its the same one it counts toward my over all GPA.  If I was smart I would have taken a break after that Psychology class where my final grade was a D+ and just regrouped myself.  Before that I had 3 As and 4 Bs and was doing OK.  Just kills me that so much happened over those 4 terms.  Sad part is that's all over this least year cause each term is 10 weeks I have failed the last 4 terms now and who knows what's next.  Guess I'll write more about my own academic issues when I know more.

In the mean time, Josh will be starting up down in Naples by Tuesday.  We are currently at his dad's and we've got the stuff in the dorm room for him to take care of when he gets down there.  Let me tell you that drive totally sucked balls.  I sure as hell would NOT want to do that again any time soon.  Don't know how often I'll be coming down for a visit based on how much work he'll be doing and how busy he'll be.  He's got a pretty decent set up.  His room has an en-suite bathroom with a stand up shower and a full size tub, large sink, with lots of counter space and toilet.  He also has a door from his room to the third floor balcony.  He has not one but TWO closets and one of them is a walk in closet with more then enough room to put his clothes and a dresser if he'd like to have one.  The other closet in the room I think was suppose to be a laundry.  I'm guessing the school originally was suppose to be a time share space, maybe, because it's set up almost like a timeshare kind of deal, two bedrooms with common living and kitchen space.  With the full size bed he's got enough room to put his desk in his bedroom.  The livingroom area has enough space for a large kitchen table, a full size sofa with end tables and a few lamps.  His bedroom also has a ceiling fan so he won't roast.  I'll tell you what, when I come down to visit I sure as hell won't be doing the he-man drive straight through deal.  I'll probably stop every hour and a half or so to get a breather and stretch my legs and such on the trip down.  The drive back by myself is totally going to suck.  I'll be taking my time heading back up as well.

Amy Winehouse who????

Seriously WTF is wrong with people? So many people who really have no clue who the hell she is and others are getting bent out of shape because I have no sympathy for the fact that she wasted her life being a junkie. She apparently wasn't that great of a 'soul singer' and didn't have any sense of fashion either and her attitude about fame and fortune apparently didn't help her any. Pisses me off that we actually excuse her behavior by feeling sorry for her because she died at the age of 27 from over dosing! Seriously I have absolutely no sympathy for her and her stupid choices in life. I have a smidge of sympathy for the family she left behind but what I want to know is where were all these people to kick her in the ass and keep her on the straight and narrow. It's amazing how we have sympathy for those who have money, now would these same people have had sympathy for her if she had been high and gotten in to a head on collision with another vehicle on the road that was a family with 4 kids who all died because she was being stupid. I just don't get how we pick and choose who we feel sorry for. People have no empathy or sympathy for Casey Anthony because they believe she killed her child but we have sympathy for someone who chose to destroy her life without looking back. Amazing how people are upset with me because I believe she made her bed and she had to succumb to the choices she made.

Let the rain keep falling...

Not much going on.  Same old same old, Eric is still working on his potty training skills and looks like I'll be changing out bed sheets til he gets the hang of getting up when he has to go or holding it til he wakes in the morning.  I'm not waking him to make him go because I'm afraid he won't get back to sleep.  I figure when he gets tired of wetting the bed he'll stop and learn to get up when he needs to or hold it til he gets up in the morning.  Would be nice to have him fully trained by the time we see Josh for his first school break.  Was talking to a friend of mine earlier about the whole potty training situation and she suggested I cut of liquids an hour and a half before bedtime in order to keep him from having an over-full bladder during the night.
As always school work is going to throw me for a loop.  Time to get my 3rd paper for class hashed out and turned in and I'm just NOT feeling it.  I need to get my act together and keep on trucking cause I'm gonna screw myself if I have to keep retaking classes.  I have so much shit to get done its not even funny.  Josh starts working at his new job Monday evening/night and he'll be sleeping during the day.  I'm hoping I'll be able to get this paper taken care of before it has to be turned in.  Wednesday I have a play date scheduled for 2ish depending on Rian and her schedule.  As of Friday Josh and I are officially civilians!  No more boat bullshit, no more command bullshit, no more military ass kissing. Funny in all my time in the military I have 3 or 4 good friends I talk to on a regular basis. Everyone else?  They can all go eat shit and die.  Life is going to be rough for us for a while but Josh and I will figure it out.  I think that the last few days has been the most couples time Josh and I has spent together in a really long time.  It's been nice and it's going to make things that much harder when he's working nights and then gone for school.  I guess I should be thankful it's not a deployment.
Funny I titled this particular blog let the rain keep falling but didn't talk at all about the weather we've been having here that is very much needed.  We've had some brush/forest fires in close proximity to us and I have to say that the smoke from them has been damaging to a lot of the local area.  The last two or three days we've had some heavy rain fall, I'm sure the firefighters are thankful for the help, they just wish it wasn't accompanied by lightening that gets the cycle started all over again.  My prayer for them is that they can get the blaze under control and that no one has gotten hurt or will get hurt from this entire situation.

All Hail The Non-Domestic Goddess!

I'll be the first to tell anyone I HATE CHORES!!!!  Wasn't the fondest of them as a kid and still don't like them now.  Don't get me wrong my house is messy and some might even say a tad 'dirty' but my home is bug free.  I don't leave garbage til it piles up to the ceiling, I try to pick up spills right away and I don't leave dishes all over the house for weeks on end and I try to avoid eating in any other room but my kitchen/dining area.

I'm still working with Eric on his potty training and such.  Unfortunately he's a hard sleeper and sleeps right through the night with no wake ups.  This also means he's a bed wetter.  He also fights with distractions during the day when he's got to use the bathroom.  This morning the fact that I had to wash his bed sheets prompted me to wash FIVE that's right (5) loads of laundry.  I'm getting in to the home making mode because I'll have to keep busy and keep costs down while Josh is in school full time.  Tomorrow's game plan is to wash our bed sheets and comforters as well as Eric's again because unfortunately I went to check on him and he was already soaked.  I figure he'll wake himself when he feels it.  This kid sleeps so hard he doesn't even move around when he's sleeping.  At any rate his sheets will be going in to the washer tomorrow morning as well.  On top of the five loads I did today I also did a load of dishes and cleared and cleaned off my kitchen table which happens to be the catch all and my primary work station for just about all things.  My kitchen table is where it all happens, mail piles up, school books pile up, purse, keys, some times Josh's clothes, Eric's clothes, Eric's toys, who says we need to eat meals around the kitchen table?  I really need to start making more of an effort to do things around here more efficiantly.  What is it they say about the road to hell being paved with good intentions?  I've always got the intentions to get my crap together and get organized and have better time management but I never seem to be able to do that for very long.  I'm also a procrastinator when it comes to school work as well.  So trying to do the full time mom thing and full time student thing is going to be a tad crazy.  The only way Josh and I will be able to keep ourselves above water is if I go full time and apply for the Post 9-11 GI Bill so I can collect the housing allowance to make sure the bills here are all paid and I still have money for groceries and occassional things for Eric.  Poor kid life is gonna suck for him if I'm ripping my hair out trying to get school stuff done.
So here's to hoping I can pull it all off.

The clouds are clearing and the end of the tunnel is near!

Wow hadn't realized how much has gone on since I last posted.  Josh has completed his BA in Political Science and graduated with a 3.88 GPA.  The issues from this past October were investigated and found to be untrue.  In the time all this was going on Josh decided he wanted to go to law school so they left him at a different command and he studied to take his LSAT.  He did better then he thought he'd do on the exam.  Once his scores were in he had over 80 schools contact him including Ave Maria School of Law which is a Catholic law school that Josh was looking at when he made his decision.  As it turns out Ave was the first school to send him information and the only one he applied to.  They accepted him with FULL scholarship for tuition.  The school relocated from MI to Naples FL a few years ago.  We've been hard at work trying to get Josh ready to leave for law school in a few weeks.
As for me I'm still working on getting myself through the courses I'm taking without killing myself and I'm having some issues.  Between having health issues and just plain lack of motivation I've had to retake a few courses and I feel like I'm doggie paddling in the same location and not getting any where.  Also Josh will be a civilian as of June 30th so money issues will soon follow the drastic decrease in income.  Not looking forward to that.

Hernia Surgery Post-op.

Surgery went down about 9 AM Thursday, I stayed in the hospital over night just as a precaution. Friday was rough on me. Saturday the big deal was major major gas issues. Today I seem to be doing much better. I was able to get in my car and take a trip over to the CVS and walk around for a bit. For the most part no more muscle spasms, of course when I tense up to cough or sneeze its painful, also hurts to laugh but other wise things aren't that bad at all. Now its just a matter of all the drugs working their way out of my system and my digestive tract getting back to normal. Another plus was coming out of surgery hungry and not nauseated. So Thursday evening I had regular foods for dinner, no liquid diet for me.

Josh has been going nuts cooking and keeping up the kitchen over the last few days. So we had lasagnia on Wed., Thurs don't know if he had left overs or ate out or what. Friday night he went out and got Chinese for us to eat, last night he made a meat pie with corn and mashed potatoes. Yum yum yum so far. I'm thankful I have a pretty hearty constitution. I'm also greatful that Eric has been kept busy and hasn't been jumping all over me. I've been working on school stuff here and there. Hoping to keep things up this term.

Seriously some times he really needs to keep....

his thoughts to himself. What man tells his wife you must like to be sick! I'm sitting here fighting a fever, the runs, nausea, stomach pain and then of course I have to be able to function like a normal human being for my son regardless of the fact that I feel like a bag of smashed assholes. So my darling husband gets to sleep like the dead through the night while I sit here and fight to actually fall asleep and stay asleep and quit coughing so hard I piss myself and pull muscles in my chest and abdomen. So when the man gets sick he drags his ass to bed some times well after midnight and gets to stay in bed til noon or later, when I'm sick I still have to get up with our son and if I'm lucky I might be able to go back to bed and catch a nap once the husband is up and can keep an ear out for Eric. I'd say keep an eye on but Josh lives at his fucking computer desk in the computer room where Eric doesn't want to spend much time. Right now I'm really feeling ornery with the various body issues I have going on. So yeah the IBS is always going to be an issue but I also have an issue that is something like having a short fernelum under the tongue that doesn't allow you to place your tongue to the roof of your mouth. This particular tissue/scar tissue problem I'm having is somewhere in my intestinal track and causes me mild pain and discomfort most days and other days I just want to rip my entire small and large intestin from my body. I have to say that I'm glad Dr. Fletcher at the ER really does listen to me. I'm so tired of people and Drs. just passing my discomfort off as IBS. I'm thinking that post surgery this issue has cropped up because of all the different places they had to place the camera while working on removing my gall bladder so its possible they irritated the surrounding tissue on the exterior of the intestins and caused/created 'caluses' or some form of scar tissue to bond external areas of the intestin. So this bonding process as caused a tense feeling almost like stuff is still sewn together and if I use to much force I'm going to tear the threads holding these parts together. On the up side I've been squirt free for about 5 or 6 hours now. Let's hope this at least holds up. I'd actually like to get some things done tomorrow.