For a change I'm not writing about the annoyances in my life. I'm not sweating the small stuff. There has been a lot going on. The biggest and most positive one is the fact that we have a new home address. Hubby changed commands a bit sooner then was originally planned but we didn't move out of the local area. We purchased a house about a week or so before Thanksgiving. Buying the house was probablly one of the best decisions we've made in a really long time. Owning a home has it's ups and downs but for the most part we haven't had any major issues with the structure or the grounds themselves. Thankfully we don't belong to an HOA so we don't have to worry about rules, regulations and excessive fees for extrainious bullshit. Outside of making sure we follow city ordinences and such we don't have to worry about a neighbor telling someone they don't like something about our home and then having the wrath of God come down on us from the president of the HOA. I started the current term two days before we closed on the house and I spent most of the time from then til Christmas trying to get things settled in and we had company for Thanksgiving and Christmas so my school work got set on a back burner for quite a while. Right now I'm backed up but I did get in touch with the professor before the start of the term and let her know that I was expecting things to get backed up and such. She's willing to grant me an extension but I'm hoping I won't really need it I'm hoping like hell I can be mostly caught up by this weekend. Being able to sit and focus has been hell for me but I'm working on it as best I can.
In other news my mother has finally decided her second marriage is over. Hell they weren't even married five full years I think or maybe just past that. I think they got married April 2004. So by the time the divorce is finalized it will have been about five and a half years they were actually married. I told my mom a while back when she was having issues with him what my perception was of him by some of the things she had said to me and also by the way I had seen him treat her. He came off as jealous, posessive and controlling and didn't like to be treated in the same manner. From me she didn't want to hear it. So the girls at work told her the same thing. When she called and told me what was going on, I told her straight up that she never seemed genuinely happy with him. They always seemed to have some kind of tension between them. What could I do. I just told her if she needed me I'd be there in what ever way I could. I just hope she seriously sticks to her guns and doesn't go back to him. Seriously I think she needs to work on herself for a while. She needs to get herself, her emotions, and her life back on track. She needs to focus on being happy with herself. I think she spent so much time resenting others for the situations she put herself in that she seriously didn't know how to put blame on herself for anything. She didn't know how to accept ownership of her faults and get beyond them. I love my mom with all my heart even when there are times that I really don't like her as a person and I truly hope that she can find peace and happiness within herself that I don't think she ever really had.
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