Wow it's totally unbelievable that now my husband is resorting to the same tactics as my sister. He doesn't like the fact that I wasn't in the mood to fuck so he throws a tantrum. Then he has the nerve to write a letter talking about how I'm compairing him to some guy in a damn novel. Could you be any more fucking ignorant and insecure??? Give me a break not everyone wants to have sex or fuck at the drop of a hat. This is the same man who acused me the entire time I was pregnant of cheating on him. Again the same man who insisted that the child who has his nose and his blood type and his family genetic disposition for hazel eyes isn't his. Why do people do this shit to eachother? Give me one damn good reason why I should want to fuck/have sex with a man who apparently doesn't trust or value me much. So now he's sitting at work stewing in his own self pity and anger for no damn reason. He'll do the oh so smart thing and come home with enough booze/beer/wine to get so drunk he'll be sick and of course he'll allow more stupid shit to come out of his mouth and then he'll either sleep in the other room or he'll decided he's going to come to bed and force himself on me. He's in for a really rude awakening if he even tries that shit. So at this point I don't have any family I can depend on for anything. Sad part is right now I don't have any money of my own. My Shares Certificate is tied up until the end of December. At this point I've been formulating a couple of things just in case I do have to leave. The closest people to me are my aunt and uncle in FL. God why does all this shit happen to me at once? Why am I always the one getting shit on from all sides at the same time? God it's going to be hell to have to start over with a small child.
For a guy who didn't like being labeled when we were dating and didn't like being acused of being a player/cheater he sure as hell has some damn nerve. He's acused me more then once or twice of having sex with someone else other then him. Sad part is at this point having sex is not very high on my priority list. I really have no big desire to have sex at all. It really has nothing specifically to do with him. It's OK for him to feel hurt because I don't want to have sex and because I say something to him about his 'weight belt' being unattractive. With all the times he's just jumped my bones without any damn thought to how I feel, doesn't matter if I'm not in the mood or in pain as long as he gets the gratification he wants. We go round and round like this so many times its not even funny. He has his moments where he's like the guy I dated back in IL and then he just asumes that because we're married I'm supposed to just be readily available for him any time he wants. What about what I fucking want? Apparently that doesn't matter.
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