Been a while.

So much has been going on. Nothing negative but a lot just the same. In the last year Josh has completed his first two years of college with honors in the top 10% of his class. All of this while working full time. Talk about determination and drive. Ok so he doesn't do as much here at home as I really wish he would but hell he busts his ass for school. Three days ago was our sixth wedding anniversary and it went by like just another day. We are both so busy just being who has time to remember the day we committed ourselves to eachother for life. I only thought of it after the fact. As for me I've finished up a second term. Earning my BS is a slow going process because I'm more worried about devoting time to my son. At this point I'm thankful I got Statistics out of the way. Everything else from this point forward should pretty much be a cake walk. Speaking of walking I watched my son take his first steps less then 12 hours ago. I was so excited I could just burst. I called my baby sister. Supermom extraordinare and she told me to have Eric practice by walking between Josh and I while we sat on the floor. Huh who knows Eric just might get the hang of walking by his first birthday... which is right around the corner... about two weeks away. Totally unbelieveable.

Eh bored but not enough to do homework

Here I sit at the moment getting ready to blog about a whole lot of nothing when I should be reading up for my Psychology class and working on my Statistics homework so I'm not trying to get it all done at the last minute. Hell I haven't even taken part in the discussion boards for this week yet. Its insane how I can manage to put things off. Earlier today I didn't get into my homework because I had a raging headache and the worst case of cramps I've had in a while. So I did other meanial things like laundry and dishes that didn't require much thought or concentration now here it is almost 10 PM I'm feeling better but have no desire to try and start any kind of reading or homework at this hour. I'm hanging in as best I can and I guess we shall see how things go as far as being able to keep my grades up in these two classes hopefully next week I won't have this issue. I have my first real 'project' for Psychology to start next week which I should really get started on research for this week. Thankfully for this class I only have three projects total and they are spaced out a bit from eachother. They all seem to be essay papers of about three pages so that shouldn't be too bad. The stats homework on the other hand is going to give me such a brain ache it isn't even funny.
Hmmmm let's see Eric is getting big and moving aroudn a lot. He's also picked up Mama. Yay, he's finally saying Mama and I love it. I was working on attempting to get dental implants and that got totally squashed by Josh because of the cost of each part of the work. So now my alternative if I want teeth is to go to my primary dentist and see if he can work on my lower partial and fix and adjust it in such a way that I can wear it comfortablly. We'll see how well that goes. I'll call them tomorrow and see if they have any appointments available. I know with the economy being the way it's been and with how bad most dental insurance sucks that a lot of people either aren't keeping dental appointments or they are not bothering to make them. Guess I'll see when I call up tomorrow, what they might have available.

Recent adventures in my life.

I've recently had a few things going on mostly good, some worrisome but good, and others have been outstanding. I'll start with Woogie Monster, he's doing great. He's crawling at a pace that scares me some times. He's been pulling himself up and standing and walking with help. Well today he's figured out a little more about balance and spent a few seconds at couple of different times during the day standing on his own without assistance. How cool is that???? He's getting to be such a big boy and he's the light of my life. Thankfully he's got the sweetest disposition and doesn't often get up from a nap or a nights sleep in a bad temper. He has also been pretty well behaved the few times I needed to get work done for school Let me tell you taking Statistics and Cognitive Behavioral Theory as online courses at the same time is truly rough. I know I don't have it bad because I'm a stay at home mom with a small child who thankfully can entertain himself for a while but boy the thought of all this stuff had me so overwhelmed at first. Well I"ve manage to get past my first Statistics assignment and we shall see how I did. I turn it in a few minutes late as I was still learning the ropes on how to create charts and graphs in an excel spreadsheet. I'm hoping now that I've got some of that stuff quite figured out I'll be able to work easier on other upcoming assignments. All I can say is thank goodness for my nextdoor neighbor and her kids because she helps to keep me sane and allows me to bring Eric over when I need to study when she's not working. By the same token I'm also glad to help her out and watch her two youngest when the two oldest ones aren't home so she can go to work for a few hours and earn some kind of money to help take care of the kids. I figure we help eachother out since she can't afford daycare and she can't afford to just stay home at least with some help she can afford to keep food on the table. She also asked me to help her get enrolled in college while her psycho husband/soon to be ex does his Army thing.*rolling my eyes* I figure if she can get into a certificate program maybe she can do medical transcription from home or something to this effect. She wants to try for her associates but that could be rough. I'll help her out as much as I can while Josh and I are still here but who knows what he'll have available for orders. He'd like to stay here. If that ends up being doable then I can finish school without stressing out and I can continue to help Sarah out. For the moment everything is wait and see.

The Invasion

My first set of inlaws have arrived. They got here and the first thing my FIL did was take over my livingroom television. I'm like fucking really???? You do the same shit at your own house. We come down to spend time with you and all you want to do is watch Golf, Football, or your son play video games on the TV. You come into my home and take over my primary living space. WTF is wrong with you? I think this is the last time we have a holiday at my home. I really do NOT like being invaded. Tomorrow everyone is taking off to go play golf and yay me I get to sit home with the baby all by myself. Fucking for real???? If I wanted to spend time by myself with my son, my husband could be at work. At this point I'm trying not to blow my stack. I thought the idea of them coming to spend time here was so that we could all do things as a family but apparently that isn't the case. Right now I'm just ready for them to go the hell home. I hope this is a shorter stay then they anticpated. GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! Seriously what the hell is wrong with people these days. Everytime we go down to visit them its the same shit. Josh is expected to keep his father entertained and again we don't do much as a collective group. They go play golf, they go fishing they drink like fish and often times I'm not included and neither is Shirley. Tomorrow even Shirley is included in the time spent away from the house. Oh have they got a reality check coming when they get back tomorrow. Soon as they all walk in I'm walking out and I'm planning on staying gone for 4 hours.
Also in the last few hours there have been more dishes made then I can manage to make in two days all by myself. Grrrrrrrrrrr I'm just tired and annoyed at the situation right now. I'm hoping things mellow out some and go a bit smoother. Will be interesting to see how things go once Barb and Kevin get here just after Christmas with Josh's dad and stepmom still here. My house is going to be insane.

The latest

It's been a while since I blog about anything and there seems to be a lot going on with my life at the moment. Eric has become extremely mobile lately and refuses to have to stay in any contraption that confines him. He's at 19 lbs and he's been pulling himself into a standing position and creeping along the sofa. All I can say is wow. I have to laugh that a couple of months ago I had a Dr. ask me if my son was stacking blocks yet and at this point the fact that he's crawling and walking with help already is great. If he doesn't want to stack blocks then hell with it he doesn't have to stack blocks.

As for me I've made it through my first class without killing myself. Looks like I may even end up getting at least a B in the class. Next term should be hell. I'll be taking Statistics and Cognitive Behavioral Theory. I am so not ready for all of that. At this point I don't even have the energy right now to finish wrapping Christmas presents that are sitting boxed up right now. I also need to go and get a nail fill on my acrylics and haven't done that either. I'm getting ready to lose a fingernail if I don't get it taken care of.

Just another day in the life of a stay at home mom.

I'm helping out a friend who is at present a single mother of 4 and gets very little to no help with anything. I'm babysitting her two youngest so she can go out to work and make her rent. Waiting tables doesn't pay very much especially right now when folks are stressing going out to spend money. Let me tell you after the few days I've spent here taking care of her two who are actually pretty decent I'm more determined then ever that I really don't want three kids all around the same age romping around my house. Taking care of her two and nine for a few hours a day isn't too bad but having to deal with three all around the same age all the time every day would damn near kill me.

Can I get a break????

Wow it's totally unbelievable that now my husband is resorting to the same tactics as my sister. He doesn't like the fact that I wasn't in the mood to fuck so he throws a tantrum. Then he has the nerve to write a letter talking about how I'm compairing him to some guy in a damn novel. Could you be any more fucking ignorant and insecure??? Give me a break not everyone wants to have sex or fuck at the drop of a hat. This is the same man who acused me the entire time I was pregnant of cheating on him. Again the same man who insisted that the child who has his nose and his blood type and his family genetic disposition for hazel eyes isn't his. Why do people do this shit to eachother? Give me one damn good reason why I should want to fuck/have sex with a man who apparently doesn't trust or value me much. So now he's sitting at work stewing in his own self pity and anger for no damn reason. He'll do the oh so smart thing and come home with enough booze/beer/wine to get so drunk he'll be sick and of course he'll allow more stupid shit to come out of his mouth and then he'll either sleep in the other room or he'll decided he's going to come to bed and force himself on me. He's in for a really rude awakening if he even tries that shit. So at this point I don't have any family I can depend on for anything. Sad part is right now I don't have any money of my own. My Shares Certificate is tied up until the end of December. At this point I've been formulating a couple of things just in case I do have to leave. The closest people to me are my aunt and uncle in FL. God why does all this shit happen to me at once? Why am I always the one getting shit on from all sides at the same time? God it's going to be hell to have to start over with a small child.

For a guy who didn't like being labeled when we were dating and didn't like being acused of being a player/cheater he sure as hell has some damn nerve. He's acused me more then once or twice of having sex with someone else other then him. Sad part is at this point having sex is not very high on my priority list. I really have no big desire to have sex at all. It really has nothing specifically to do with him. It's OK for him to feel hurt because I don't want to have sex and because I say something to him about his 'weight belt' being unattractive. With all the times he's just jumped my bones without any damn thought to how I feel, doesn't matter if I'm not in the mood or in pain as long as he gets the gratification he wants. We go round and round like this so many times its not even funny. He has his moments where he's like the guy I dated back in IL and then he just asumes that because we're married I'm supposed to just be readily available for him any time he wants. What about what I fucking want? Apparently that doesn't matter.